It seems like I'm writing the same old 'blehh, I have depression' stuff all over again. But I want to try something different this time around. I want to REMEMBER. Remember what I've learned. Remember my past God moments. Remember the people He's put in my life to encourage me. Remember the ways He's used me. Remember the times He was so completely evident. Remember all the "oooooooh" moments I've had with Him. Remember the times worship.
(ugh I need my headphones. I hate Panera music. and whiny children. why'd it just get busy in here all of a sudden..)
Humans are defined not by their limits, but by the intentions I have for them;
not by what they seem to be, but by everything it means to be created in my image.
I am a masterpiece of Christ.
So while the asian man across the tables at Panera awkwardly sits facing me and eats by himself, here are some of the sermons & notes from January....
PASSION:
God is the God of immeasurably more than I can imagine...let Him replace our hardened hearts with His fully alive and beating ones.
Ezekial 36:24-27 (v26)"I will give you a new heart, and I will put a new spirit in you. I will take out your stubborn heart and give you a RESPONSIVE heart"
Ezekial 37:1-10 the valley of dry bones-where we're walking
valley: low & dark place
dry bones: thirsty & desolate
(v3) "can these bones become living people again?"
then picture this!..
(v5) "the Lord says: I am going to put breath into you and make you live again! I will put flesh and muscles on you and cover you with skin. I will put breath into you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the Lord....Suddenly as aI spoke, there was a rattling noise all across the valley. The bones of each body came together...They all came to life and stood up on their feet"
seriously,
picture that!
Us...dry bones..
God will SPEAK the Word into us (through circumstance, person, teaching)
God will put BREATH into us
God will ATTACH TENDONS/ cover with skin: repair & restore
We will KNOW that He is God
THE BLIND WILL SEE.
In attempt to control my own life,
I ruin it...so trust God with it.
But we only trust who we FULLY know.
example, it's effortless to trust a close family member.
However, if our knowledge doesn't lead to love,
then we have 0 knowledge.
>>>>>>when I understand and fully receive this free gift (God's crazy love), I'll stop trying to earn it and live freely for Him.
for now...my last sermon notes (and favorite) Franny Chan..
Experiencing God is making disciples. maybe I need to focus more on this. experiencing God is making disciples... that's guna be in my thoughts the rest of tonight.
>when darkness falls.
i find my peace in Christ
>my distrust in people can spill over in my relationship with God but
"understand that the Lord your God IS God.He is the faithful God who keeps his promises for a thousand generations and lavishes his unfailing love on those who love him and obey his commands." Deut. 7:9
even when we're unfaithful, He remains faithful
2 Tim 2:13 ...my actions don't change God dry bones can't come to life on
their own. we NEED Him.
If we endure through this darkness, we reign with Him
HEAVEN.. we should be like little kids...so excited, jumping up and down for the ice cream man....the time for heaven is coming! Why am I living like a hurt person with my guard up giving Him only a little faith in fear of getting my hopes up & crushed.
I feel like in the flesh, we give God only so much. We trust Him with only so much. When it comes to a sick somebody, we pray and ask Him for help. But when it comes to the tiniest decision, like where should I go for dinner...He's not included. But how do you that He doesn't have a person or a plan waiting for you at this dinner place? It sounds crazy, but God what should I do with my night? Where do you want me to be? Control my heart and my desire for the plan tonight.
Let my hearts desires match yours so I can be where you
want me, when you want me, with the emotion you
want me to have. I'm only happy when I have God,
I've learned. Because I'm completely satisfied.
so hopefully this funk goes away soon. God can use it how he wants.
Tomorrow is Disney world.
Next weekend is Miami.
The asian man is still there
Grandpas cancer WILL go away
God will have His way with Luke & I
I'm thankful for my VS jacket I'm wearing
My managers guna be mad when he sees I took off 2 weekends in a row
I love my Christmas phone case from Teresa
I want a renewal in my heart and spirit!
